Should I leave Brampton, forego the OW payments, and go back to a Toronto shelter? I'll set myself back, may lose out on Andrew as a roommate at the end of the year, and won't be in Brampton. However, Toronto has more opportunities, and if TA moves out he'd probably end up in Toronto.

I can't stay at the place I'm at now. Royia claimed the room I was renting, and I won't dispute it because I originally found this place for her while we were dating. She's got her new boyfriend in and out of the place now, and I'm not particularly impressed, but I'm really not going to say much about it. She doesn't have many friends, never had many people in her life that cared about her, and still wants to be my friend. Apparently she split up with me because "I treated her too well" which is retarded. Her self worth is far too low. However, considering her actions and breach of trust, not to mention the fact she immediately moved on, why should I be her friend? I cut people from my life for less significant things, and I don't see why she should be any more deserving. The only question is do I keep some civility and remain in her life enough that she knows I'm alive, and fine, or do I cut her off completely so neither of us were hear from each other again?

I guess I never did start posting here. The misanthropy is swiftly taking hold. Humanity is fucking disgusting. All you sick little piggies should either stop and wake up, or simply lay down in the street and die. I'm no better, but at least I see it. Go worship your money, go lust after women, go rape and murder, go have fun. You're idiots. We're idiots.

I hate niggers. Now, first, don't assume I mean the colour of your skin, because I don't. White people can be niggers. Brown people can be niggers. If you worship money, wear flashy clothes, treat women like shit, think you're a gangster, and sneer at society with that feeling of superiority... you're a nigger. You're worthless. You're a useless piece of shit. You need to die. You should all walk off a cliff like those fucking lemmings. If I was given the authority I would murder every fucking one of you counter-productive, sick, disgusting sacks of shit. I hate you all.

Clearly my post is filled with disgust and anger. Get used to it. I hate you. I hate myself. I'd kill myself, but then I wouldn't have the chance to tell the rest of you how disgusting you are. Maybe I will anyway. The few that care are those few bright shining lights, but is it worth the world of shit out there? I either need to completely isolate myself and live as a hermit or roll over and die. Either one works for me.

So I guess I'm going to start posting here again, but rather than detailing my life or opinions I'm just going to spew whatever I happen to be thinking at the time no matter how rude, offensive, racist, illegal, or blatantly disrespectful it might be. Fuck all you faggots who can't deal with it. Fuck your fried chicken. Fuck your watermelon. Fuck your turbans. Just because you know where your towel is doesn't make you special. Fuck your trailer courts. Surprisingly I'm actually in a half decent mood right now, and just incredibly bored. Watching Leon with Deth and trying not to choke him. His outlook on life is infuriating and if I had a loose temper I'd have stabbed him by now. I'm sure I'm just as frustrating. Maybe more. I'm going to go shit in his laptop and wipe my semen on his pillowcase now.

So I've decided that I will finally abandon this retarded lifestyle that people embrace. I am going to become a drifter. I'll hitchhike between random cities, visit interesting sites, and work along the way. It probably won't be easy, but I'm used to being homeless, poor, hungry, and I don't think I'll be living all that bad. I'll definitely enjoy myself along the way and keep my friends updated. Perhaps I can visit random people I've met online along my journey.

I'm mildly intoxicated right now. I still have little money, and no job, but fuck it. I'll get that shit soon and enjoy myself the entire way. I just spent about an hour and a half talking with a random older guy I sort of knew about an assload of great books and movies in detail. He reads a lot of horror, fantasy, and science-fiction, as do I, but he is intrigued with post-apocalyptic scenarios and time travel/modifying history. I suggested Swan Song, and he said it was one of his favourites. Fuck yes. I would have went and bought it for him if he hadn't read it. We had this discussion outside a bookstore, so we went in after the beer we were drinking outside. We discussed some more books and authors, and I showed him two: 'Gardens of the Moon' (First book in 'A Tale of the Malazan Book of the Fallen') by Steven Erikson, and 'The Redemption of Althalus' by David & Leigh Eddings. He ended up buying 'The Redemption of Althalus.' I had a whole entire paragraph I was about to write about something completely different which happened a few days ago, also good news. Unfortunately, I said fuck it.

Well, I am beat fucking tired, so I don't feel like there's a lot I can talk about. I've decided I don't necessarily need to keep this journal grammatically correct, and everyone else can kind of go fuck themselves. I went down to the temp agency this morning, and got a day job moving office furniture. Unfortunately, when we got there the fucking elevator was broken, so we had to carry heavy fucking shelving and shit up the stairs for a few hours until they fixed the elevator. It was pretty easy shit after that. Mostly matching materials with the right cubicle. After that, I went down to the bookstore near the temp agency, and picked up the very first edition of Dragon Magazine, from '86. I saw a couple V:tM (and whatever the other Vampire books were) and hid them so I can go back and buy them.

I finally managed to convince Sam to move the FYG channel to my network. Ever since crater left our userbase has grown a bit stagnant, and we really haven't had anyone new. It's definitely nice to see new people at my home, finally. Makes me a little bit happier :D

I was going to rant about CoD4, but I'm simply too angry about all those 10th prestige assholes raping our clan today. I cried and bricks were shat.

Okay, sometimes this game really pisses me the fuck off. Some of these people play games for 17+ hours a day, and are therefore insanely good at them. Two things in this game piss me off more than anything else, though: Juggernauts, and fucking campers. It's something like 3 shots with a sniper rifle to take out some juggernaut asshole, and that can be very frustrating when they immediately fuck off after being shot. Also, GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE CORNER, YOU FUCKING CAMPER. I absolutely fume when I see some asshole hiding under a table in the corner of a room for an entire map. I can't stand that shit.

Well, this is empty. This is because I need to take a massive shit. If you are uncomfortable with extremely crude, sick, disgusting, depraved, horrifying, and potentially humorous discussions posted in explicit imagery, this is the perfect place for you.